Maybe Part Of Loving, Is Learning To Let Go...

I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

Oh damn! The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Move suddenly playing on my iTunes and it's raining outside. This is not Facebook that asking you 'What's on your mind?' But as usual, writing about you is always the easiest, Chris.

They say falling in love is easy, but staying in love is very special. They can always also easily say move on while they don't want to understand how I also ask God to move my feet. No, they don't.

And this is what happened, how if you're the only one I want to annoy for the rest of life?
 I read our old messages and smiling like the first time I read them. I don't ever want to forget your face but if I don't forget your face, I'll go crazy.
And that's how love usually works...

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If you read this, give me a sign, Mister :')

Or I may really the only one rowing the boat...

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Oh, or should I keep my faith , about me, you, and us?

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P.S. I miss you. I miss us.

All Is Well

Me, music, and hot tea.

Remembering how couple weeks before I left, working on Saturday and Sunday is become more interesting. Yes, I can freely working- even by myself- and avoid the drama that I really don't want to deal.

I look at my right side how Jakarta spread the sun today. Thinking to go out and looking at the beach I usually do but :( oh I'm not in Nusa Dua anymore, not in the place when I open my door I can enjoy the lagoon with birds flying around. Not with the lagoon with biawak a.k.a monster lizard can makes me scream somehow.

And no beautiful sandy beach for me to have a look. Oh dear!

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What I'm trying now is being okay with where am I even I know I want to change it. It has been said time heals all wounds and I'm on my way to believe it. In time, I may be act too old not to take 20 seconds being insane for what I may have now: 4 Stars. Hahah. What the hell on my mind when I decide to take this opportunity?

Maybe this words "And at the same point, sometimes the wrong choices bring us to the right places."
Anyway I respect my self enough for these, I grow up (even I hate it), and keep thinking about happiness.

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Yea I'm a normal women, I break down temporarily, but I'm a real women too for sure.
I pick up the pieces, rebuild myself and come back stronger than ever.

And I start each day like it's my birthday. Oh nooo!
Okay, I live to the fullest, like there's no tomorrow.

And every time they said "All will fine, all will always good" I mean it and it's real...

Here am I

Note to self: stop expecting :')

So It Goes Some Things Are...

It's strange how we meet as strangers but there is something that...

Okay. I suddenly landed inside your arms.
Breathing in slowly. Realizing my fingers fit properly with yours. Closing my eyes and see you smiling.

Yea I know moving on is always take some time and is always become -a never easy things to do- not because about the process but it's always about you, either you want it or you don't want it: to move on.

Am I right? Oh, it's not about right or wrong. It's not also about love or may a sudden feeling in the end.
But... Like a river flows, so surely to sea, darling!

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And still.. I don't know.. as my heart always stumbles on things I don't know. What I know is from the moment we started talking I knew I wanted you around. Whooops...!

Surely we're not gonna talk about love, nor serious relationship. I will also not gonna waste the time I can show you how beautiful it is; enjoying the city while you hug me from my back, how cuddling is the best damn thing we can have on a lazy Sunday, oh, not even expecting these cute way to say worth thing:

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 Just enjoy every single random things we have. Space, freedom, playtime, relationship, intimacy, spontaneity, LOVE. Hello? That's what life is about. That's it!

Moving on or protect yourself from what they called love, easily falling in love or falling in to bed (:p), is again your choice :)

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Because it is beautiful to love, and to be free at the same time...