Thursday, May 30, 2019

Vers l’infini et au-delà

I wrote “the Charm of Ellie Goulding” the other day.

Some songs are for some of my favorite humans in this world;

“How Long Will I Love You” for Dan,

“Dead in the Water” for Lars,

“I Know You Care” for Gareth,

“First Time” for Kurt,

“Here’s to Us” for Ralph, and

“Army” for Christie.

To the one that I miss the most, Christie, I honor our friendship with lots of ups and downs since we were in a high school.

I appreciate any helps you did, the thoughts you always have through the miles, and to always stay by my side without any judgment.

You might want to hear this song as much as I do.
And read the lyrics as much as I do when I miss us.

I know that I've been messed up

You never let me give up

All the nights and the fights

And the blood and the breakups

You always had to call off

I am pain, I'm a child, I'm afraid

Yet you understand

Yeah like no one can

Know that we don't look like much

But no one fucks it up like us

Sixteen and you never even judged me

Matter of fact I always thought you were too cool for me

Sitting there in the caravan

All the nights we've been drunk on the floor

Yet you understand

Yeah like no one can

We both know what they say about us

But they don't stand a chance because

When I'm with you

I'm standing with an army

When I'm with you

I'm standing with an army

Standing with an army

Dark times, you could always find the bright side

I'm amazed by the things that you would sacrifice

Just to be there for me

How you cringe when you sing out of tune

Yet it's everything

So don't change a thing

We both know what they say about us

But they don't stand a chance because

When I'm with you

I'm standing with an army

When I'm with you

I'm standing with an army

Standing with an army

Standing with an army (ooh I'll be yours)

Standing with an army

I'm standing with an army

Yet you understand

Yeah like no one can

We both know what they say about us

When I'm with you (when I'm with you)

I'm standing with an army

When I'm with you (when I'm with you)

I'm standing with an army

They don't have a chance either

I wish there’s no such long distance with a long period with this girl.

Come back soon :’)

Saturday, May 25, 2019

I know. I can understand that. The job promotion you told me about. The 5 Stars Hotel facilities that excite you. The 10 days salary slip you send. And all the way you motivate me to not give up about my career again.
I'm not trying to be naive. All the career goals, all the employees' benefit didn't make me interest anymore. The money I had definitely can't buy what I need. I tried to find the best things in life that actually free, and it's not even in my favorite store.
I can't find the warm hugs, I can't find the sincerest smiles, laughter, friends, family, love, nor good memories. With the time that I spend too much to just reach my career, I can't take it back with my tears. I'm losing the people I loved. I'm craving their time, their presence, their touch, or even their voice.
So congratulation once again, I'm very proud of you and I'll remember when you answer me about your Jakarta plan, you said, "It's never about the money but I never have the time".
And I agree with you. So, Anthony, we all know that "happy is the new wealthy". I hope you're happy, too. I hope you find a good sleep, an appetite, a beauty in things, a home feeling, a healthy body and mind, friends and love; with all the money and pride you proud of.

And I hope you come back soon, as well.

To just feeling alright, with the Cold Beer and just Fish & Chips.

The Forgiveness I Learned from Roxy

My dear Roxy, I always wonder about these things:
If you could talk, what would you like to say to me?
If you could hear, what other compliments you want to hear from me?
And if we could sit and talk right now, would you teach me about that forgiveness?

My pretty girl, know that I love you this much that I could cry every time I miss you. I never knew that I will love you this much. You're the sweetest rescue, you have no idea how tragic your life before; that I thank God, Mario & Antonella and your Dad, Gareth to save you.
They leave you to pieces and you still forgive them.

You become an adorable furever puppy with that big brown eyes and beautiful lashes. You wag your tail for every time you see me. You sleep in my arms, you're being so small inside my hug. You sit next to me regardless of any emotional baggage I might be holding, and all of the humble gesture of yours.

If you are that amazing with all the broken past, who am I complaining that I can't move on or can't be the better version of me, Rox?
I woof you. And so your Dad. We're living in perfect confused harmony that we no longer question about. We are just as happy as you are. We are the team, to ensure you and your brother happy. To provide you a home feeling. And to always learn from you, about forgiveness.