Tuesday, November 1, 2016

After All This Time...

I was in Hong Kong when his Mom sends me his lovely picture. That day I receive the picture, was not far from "Killing of Harambe" at the Cincinnati Zoo and Botanical Garden, and I found someone stalks my Facebook account because she wants to be with my partner, so I decide to, deactivate my Facebook account! Phew.
Facebook might the only way I could talk with his Mom, she's the strongest single Mom I've ever know that I wish I could hold her tight, every day. I know it's not easy to lose her only son, but she never shows me how sad is she after Lars left. Though I am a strong woman, it's not gonna happen with me as even 3 years after his passing,  I am still, h..e..r..e, frozen. No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear, my love.
As far as I know, I'm getting stronger by letting you live my life by being an angel that always hugging me from the back or jump into a conversation with someone that could talk to you, yeah! Hahaha, I know you're around, I can feel you around! This 27, for you up there, my love, my new beginning, my gift to you, to make you feel more proud, and here I am, the Front Office Manager for Selected Service of the Portfolios in the #1 World's Largest Hotel Company. By God grace, and working passion!

Sr. Nena, she keeps telling me "Move on! 3 years already!"



What was it like to lose him? 
It was like hearing every goodbye ever said to me-----said all at once.
-Lang Leav


P.S. I will see you someday again in the clouds.

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