The Muffled Sobs

Do you have someone or place you wish to run into when you are sad, like extremely sad? I have three in my life:

Christie, 

  Christie and I are more than a best friend you could've to imagine. If I can't cry immediately to her, I will listen to Ellie Goulding - Army so then I know she is not that far. I wrote about The Charm of Ellie Goulding last year, but I will quote what Ellie say to her best friend when she made this song, enough to describe my feeling to Christie, too:

"From Ellie: I realized that I had focused a lot of writing on past relationships and it hit me I had never written about my best friend. The person I met in college over ten years ago. The person who was at my very first gig. The person who has seen me at my lowest and the first person I call in muffled sobs when something bad happens. We've been deliriously happy together, deliriously tired, and deliriously sad together. I wanted to show our friendship for what it really is- honest, real, electric. I think about the times we drink together until neither of us can stand. The laughing at our own ridiculousness and foolishness. Comparing our trials and errors; overthinking our break ups and new loves, remembering everything we've been through to get to this point, and being so proud of it. Two girls from Hereford trying our best in the City. We open our hearts up and take risks, but together we are more powerful than ever. We are challenged every day but we see it through and sometimes it feels like we can conquer anything. When I'm with you, I'm standing with an army."

My father,

    Just like what I did last night. I called him and not saying anything until he asks "Adek menangis ya?" (Adek, are you crying?) I said no, I am just feeling unwell. But I know he knows I am sobbing. But it's just enough, enough to let him know that his little girl crying. And I feel so much peace from that. 

My Catholic Church. 

    I sneak out to the church and down on my knees, crying. Not say a thing. And I feel so relieved. Or if Sr. Nena still around, I will visit her as well, crying but say nothing. 

How about you? Do you have someone or place you wish to run to when you are in tears?